the pizza man's crush

DAY 1

i knock on the door,holding a bag with hot pizza in it

a woman opens the door,overworked

i could see the tiredness in her eyes

the pizza exchange hands

i cant stop looking at her

then she speak "find ur own level,pizzaman"

i lowered my view, i'm only a pizza delivery man

DAY 2

the second day i went to her house.

i could hear a a slow jazz music were playing

a guy opens the door,

her boyfriend,i guess

no surprise

i said nothing

take the money and back to the restaurant

but somehow i feel a slight of jealousy

i push the feeling faraway

DAY 3

i knock on the door, i could smell a faint aroma of liquor

she's opened the door, she's drunk

poor her. somehow, i know something bad happen to her

she take the pizza and went in.

she come back with money in her hand but

before she could give it to me

she collapsed

DAY 4

i stay up in her house, she's lying on my lap

she slowly open her eyes

she smile,there's no expression showing that

she's surprised

her smile faint. she sit beside me.

and started to talk "actually i need someone talk to"

she smile with hope.

but i stand up and say "i'm a pizzaman, i'm not the guy to talk to"

i started to walk towards the door.

before i could take my third step.

a pair of arm wrap me.

she hug me from behind, and she's crying.

"please stay...."

TODAY

now it's all have changed

i came without pizza but with a bouquet of roses

red roses

i knock on the door

a woman opens the door

she hug me

what can i say

she's now my girlfriend, she's a businesswoman

and i'm just a

PIZZA DELIVERY MAN

may fate fares you well [part 1]

Have you felt something that already in your hands, slipped away? And that’s how I feel right now. I am standing under a shade of a tree. The feeling of anger is erupting under my skin. The sorrow kills me from within. I barely stand.

Then, somebody hug me from behind. I could smell the scent of roses. The perfume that, she always wear. For a sec, I lost myself. I turn around and hug her back without being told.

“I know you would need someone to hug” she said in lowered voice. My body is no longer under my control. I guess that’s really what I need. A hug .but then, something jolts me. She wasn’t the girl I expect her to be. I’d push her away. Look into her brown eyes. She’s for real. It’s not a dream.

She came at me. Pressed her lips on my cheek and tell me that everything is going to be okay. I sighed. Walk away without saying a word to her.

I wasn’t thinking bout her. I’m thinking bout the girl I once loved but now stabbing me from the back. The wound is bleeding hard. Our love story was sweet but I never expect it to end with bitterness.

I’d once be the Romeo and she’s the Juliet. I’d once be the prince charming and she’s the Cinderella. I guess fairytales doesn’t happen in true life. But I do believe in love.

I throw myself on the bed. Flash back every second of my life with her. The moment we started, the moment she left me and the moment she’d betray me.

[a bit part of my novel that i have been working on, wish me luck]

do you remember?

it was after rained

the grass were wet

you came by suprise

u ask me to have a walk

we walk with our finger crossed

we are walking forever but

not even of a sweat is out

then we sit together

u put ur head on my shoulder

i cant stop rubbing ur hand

so soft... i thought

then..

it was a goodbye

i wish it wasnt not the end

i hugged n kiss u then

i took a step n left

then i realize

i already missing u

then i know

it was LOVE

for those who writes

i'm standing by the shore
lurking trough the raining sunshine
inside ur wicked life
piece or freedom u noticed
i realize that world is not as cruel as i thought
barely live trough those problems
u hate it but then u made it to overcome it

i being optimistic
lettering every single words

i'm no perfectionist
i yelling my mind to forget those wicked probs

i am finally overcoming those fear
i never will give up to nothing
i going to forget bout suicide
ledge of buildings is no longer my dreams
i lived till fate take my soul~

the killing painkiller

love is like the weather....its cames and gone....but sometimes it last.. it came with the wind... sometimes it's a sweet breeze but sometimes it is just a killing tornado...put life in the lines.. where we cant decide.. the wind came although we didnt summon.. it cames naturally just like love.. sometimes i taste love bitter than ever...but sometimes it just perfectly sweet.. i'm not a daydreamer... i'm not riddance... i'm not a killer neither a suicide person... but its still ends with painkillers... between it makes as numb from all sorrows or make us die for takin too much

stupid question

answer this question with no smile on ur face
i dare you

a turtle without a shell is homeless or naked?

why sheep dont shrink when being washed?

what is the difference between suicide and eating a sushi made up of durian?

what is the difference between ketchup and a tomato sauce?

what is the answer of 1 + 1 ,without saying it two?

FIFA= fill in frustrated allover
or
fell inside football's awesome
or
football is frustrated awesome

i'm not writing this but someone else
weird huh?

last night

sorry coz didnt post last night
well i got sleepy after watching SHOWDOWN 2010
the GBC and the wakaka just great
wakaka=the first time saw a lyrical dance[meaning not using any music at all!!]
GBC=just great with their krumping
but what i'm gonna focus on return crew
they are made up of kids aging 15 until 17
my sis keep mumbling sayin
"blek blanja la dorang nie,dhla patut nye pmr n spm taun nie"

weird a kid about my age, could thinkin of entering those dancing show
but i do amazed with their dancing[although they hardly do a power moves]
but when they cry during the elimination
man,come on life is still a long way to go
actually i'm writing this coz i'm kinda blur today[stupid is it?]